Steps Forward to the Dawn

Current Tunes: TV and the birds chirping in the sunny backyard

Recent developments have been moderately… surprising. I came to Florence this weekend looking for a quick escape, and I suppose I’ve received that, but I’ve also gotten something else I didn’t even intend to find. I’ve had a great time just spending time with my parents. It’s been enjoyable to the point that I’m actually going to stay another day just to get a little more of that. I haven’t had a weekend with them this stress-less, this quiet, calm. So for now, for once, I consider myself grateful for my parents.

I wonder how I’ll make out through summer school. Going with online classes, there’s no formula and regularity of class sessions to keep me grounded. I’ll have to do it all under my own power. What’s more difficult is I have little to no interest in these classes I’m taking. But I can succeed. Scratch that, will succeed.

There’s plenty of other things to be concerned about as well, goals and objectives to achieve. I have to narrow it down though. I absolutely cannot do all these things at once. My willpower, though I’m learning to summon it from the invisibles nether regions, still has a finite reserve and to try too much will only end in more disappointment and discouragement. A big piece of the puzzle has got to be figuring out a couple of things, not the least of which is learning to believe in myself and be confident. But at the same time not straining myself beyond my capabilities and limits.

At least I have a few things to keep the stress level down. LAN party in less than a week, then after that a trip to the beach for about a week. Balancing hard work and perseverance with recreation and relaxation will be the lesson of the month.